your personal hell

I don't want to get too deep into this whole "personal hell" thing because it's too scary, but I'll just leave you with this:

When I was in college a few years ago, I had an almost unavoidable road rage meltdown at least once a week on my way to class. I felt like I was indefinitely trapped in a highly scheduled, demanding life with no freedom, constant responsibility, tiredness, disconnectedness from the people I most wanted connection with, spending most of my day indoors, and spending lots of time alone. Like I would never have my first-choice life, and the tasks would never stop, and the machine of society was going to eat all my time and energy and soul and I could never get out. I'd always get done with it and talk myself/be talked out of it within an hour, only to do it again the next week. I also was convinced I really enjoyed my life at the time because the idea of being unhappy wasn't an option.

Yes, my life and my mental health got better.

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