Ok, Im kinda worried about my test. My family has a huge predosposition to depression (brother recently threatenned suicide, sis is in a mental hospital) and thats been hitting me rough. Not sure if I'm temporarily exhibitting symptoms for now.

First question is "little interest doing things". Like yeah, Ive noticed some things that used to give me pleasure dont, but its not a constant thing.

"Feeling down depressed hopeless" yeah definitely. Losing a lotta highschool friends. Feel like no one will ever love me, partially cause I got bullied young and am now akward.

"Trouble falling asleep or sleeping too much" way worse than normal but I assumed that was cause of electronics.

"Tired or little enegy" no.

"Poor appetite" no.

"Feeling like a let down to family" constantly

"Trouble concentrating on things" constantly. I get really nervous, feel like I need to make up for failure.

"Fidgeting/restless" get so nervous, just cant stop shaking my leg

"Thought you would be better off dead / hurting yourself" like I calm down sometimes by punishing myself by biting or digging my pencil in, tho Id never use a razor cause thatd leave a mark.

Idk what to do. Idk if a label like depression will help. I dont want excuses, especially when my siblings have it so much worse. Feel like I need to cry, unsure why. Leaving for Brown in a week, hopefully thatll get me out of my funk.