I think being HSP is tough when I tried too hard to fit in. For example, when I'm invited to attend work gatherings or social events, I just don't feel like I belong there. My parents think I'm weird, especially my mom who is an extrovert and socialite. There are moments when I will think of something sad (sometimes about me, someone else, or the world at large), and I will tear up. Sometimes, I will think about something touching or beautiful, and I will also tear up (touching thoughts make me cry more, actually). At night, I will sometimes feel an ache in my heart/chest that just doesn't seem to go away no matter how many deep breaths I take. (I don't know if it's because I'm sensitive or I'm still just trying to get over a breakup haha.) I'm also a very light sleeper, and can take hours to fall asleep (even when it's very quiet). I am a fan of blackouts lol. Relationships are exhausting and can throw me in a spin. I would get panic attacks. Right now, I'm single, so I am at peace on most days. I've been working on myself a lot, so I might actually be okay if I go into another intimate relationship.

With all that said, I think being sensitive is a very rich experience. I see so much beauty in the world. As well as sadness and pain. But it's because of sadness that I see so much beauty. I'm not an empath---I think that is a whole other level I can only imagine. But I feel like I can see certain things about people. It's like being able to see something that other people can't, which is kind of cool. It allows me connect with someone beyond just the surface. As an empath, do you ever feel like you can "see" someone's soul? With certain people, I feel like I can "see" their souls. And I think that's just magic.

At the end of the day, I think a lot of it is just accepting myself and making the most out of what I have. I used to resist who I was and tried to be someone I'm not, and it created a lot of stress. Being myself is the best.

After you read this, I'm going to delete this too :).