My Mother committed suicide in California living with my Grandparents. I’m in Florida. I was the only one she wrote the note to. Apologizing to me for her taking her life. My youngest brother has high functioning autism. It would ruin him if he knew; he would be devastated and it could ruin his life he was 18 when she passed. I’ve kept this from my siblings and dealt with it alone. I spoke with her and a week and a half before and she sounded unusually positive. But something happened between that time and it was to much for her to bare. I’ve done handwriting analysis and her writing was as calm as if she were making a grocery list. In her final moments I’m sure she had second thoughts but then it’s to late.