To me greysexual means I rarely experience sexual attraction.

I knew I was greysexual because I almost never feel that kind of passion or want to have sex that other people do. I was once dating someone who loved me... unfortunately I could not return it even though I tried, and I didn’t love him the way he loved me and when we would kiss or do something sexual it was like I didn’t feel what I thought I was supposed to be feeling. I wasn’t sexually attracted to him. Then I met someone who I had a ton in common with and felt like he understood me and I unfortunately fell in love with him even though he was a toxic person and I denied it to myself for years. He did not return it although he acted like he did and it messed with my mind. When I kissed him I felt sexual attraction for the first and only time. 3 years have passed now, and I haven’t felt sexual attraction ever again. I learned about being aspec about a year later and everything fell into place