i’ve kinda been assuming all along that i would be having a baby shower for this baby, even though it’s my second. they will be almost 8 years apart, and it’s my husband’s first but the more i think about it...i don’t know. who would even come? my husband’s family are all in another country. we don’t really have many friends, and the ones we do have we don’t see very often. my coworkers are great and everyone at work is really happy for me, but i’ve only known them for a couple months. there’s no one to plan it or offering to host it, other than my mom.

my own family have been...weirdly unexcited/uncaring about me being pregnant, other than my parents. i’m actually kind of surprised that it bothers me at all, since i’m a really private person and i don’t like a lot of attention, but it does. out of all my aunts, uncles, and myriad of cousins, not a single one of them has reached out or said congratulations to us, other than one uncle who commented on our facebook announcement. i’m annoyed at myself for even caring, but i wanted this baby so much and waited a long time for him and it makes me sad that more people aren’t excited about him.