17 years of being permastoned here. At this point my stoned self is more my real self than my sober self. Like my waking reality has been more stoned than not.

Stoned, i have social anxiety and have to fight to look people in the eyes and have constant feelings of being awkward. Sober all thats stuff is still there but i have wayyyy more of a fuck it attitude, like my mind doesnt focus on it, i dont realize or pay attention to the same things. Sometimes if i dont smoke for a day or two and then i smoke, i think about how i interacted with people when i wasnt high and get sooo self conscious. hard to describe. Its like this, sober i have tinder going and im swiping and chatting with woman and trying to hook up. Stoned i deactivate tinder so people dont see me on there and im scared to talk to people. Sober i want to go out and have fun. Stoned i want to stay at home with my PJs on. I wasnt always like this as ive aged its gotten worse. I really like weed, but its got to be respected, it does have some bad aspects that can and will affect certain types of people in a negative type way and cause issues in their lives. Its not as safe as i always thought.