I’m not really sure what this post is about, but your pessimistic outlook on the future is contradictory to everything Theosophy, esotericism, and history tells us. Never before in history has the future been worse than the past, things always get better. Either you die during a bad time or you live long enough to see a good time again.

Real inner peace and joy come from knowing the system of good and bad and understanding how they relate. It’s like the seasons, there is spring where things are blooming and living and it’s good and fall where things are dying and it’s bad. But the seasons as a whole are good, if that makes sense, so even during the fall and winter when everything is so bad, it’s still good to live in because of the hope for a better future and the knowledge of the seasons as a whole.

It sounds like you need to find balance, my friend. Things will get better.