I don't understand you want to get rid of this depression. But you don't want to replace these negative thoughts with positive once?
I want to get rid of this depression so I will not sleep for >15 hours and have some motivation to do something which may then lead to positive thoughts.
Saying "I'm a confident human being and i can do anything which i desire" is called a positive affirmation. Look it up on google. Its a technique to change the way you talk to yourself. But somehow thats android like behavior to you.
Saying "I'm a confident human being and I can do anything which I desire" is a lie. It's like saying "God created us" or "Allah will punish the infidels".
Depression isn't cured in a couple of days. It could take a very long time. Which is the case for you.
If 5 years haven't been enough, I won't invest any additional time. Sorry. I will not suffer for an additional 5 years or even longer. I'm beyond thirty then and that's just not worth it.
Why? because of your mindset. Its literally killing you.
That's not true.
Replacing negative thoughts with positive ones isn't some kind of "unnatural behavior". Its whats going to help you in the end!
Dude.
You think all these people who recovered from depression stayed there talking negative about themselves? No!
Dude. You think the 1.000.000 people who are commiting suicide every year are just instantly gave up when they felt depressed for the first time?
The problem lies in your mindset. You already know that. By replacing these negative thought with encouraging thoughts, your mindset could be altered. The way you perceive information can be changed.
No, it doesn't. My problem is that my head hurts 24/7 physically, I often have physical pain in other body parts without having any injuries, my chronical sinusitis and the fact that I lost most of my physical drives and mental motivation.
That has nothing to do with any kind of mindset. If I can't get out of bed because I'm tired and exhausted it's not because I'm talking myself into it. When I don't eat enough, it's not because I'm talking myself into it, but because I'm just hungry at all. Get it?
My depression is an internal issue, not an external one. I haven't been abused or suffered from a trauma. I may have a chemically imbalance or whatever. Just like a hard-drive-crash. But my body can't process anti-depressants, so there's that.
I gave you motivation by saying to not give up.
You can't just "give" motivation. The same way you can't apologize. You can ask for apology. Or you can motivate yourself. But you can't just hand it over like a box of cookies.
Still make the small little changes in your life
I can't even leave my bed.
And any sort of help is totally neglected
What you don't get is the fact that you for example are just talking to me. How exactly do you think can talking fix physical pain? Tell me please.