pretty good until somewhere in 6th grade. At the start I was social and was pretty confident. Then I got bullied and lost all my self confidence; it all went downhill from there. I tried to be confident and popular but I was ugly and awkward at that point so it didn't work. Lost almost all of the friends I made at the start of 6th grade. Some people would befriend me over the years but I was the second option at best. Never fit into any groups, and wasn't allowed anywhere when I was invited by the few people who tried to be nice; so those stopped coming quickly.
I got teased a lot in 8th-10th. At that time my parents would argue and scream at each other every day, and my dad had horrible emotional control so I would have to walk around eggshells with him because I never knew what mood he was in; I ended up getting beat a lot. The fear I felt for my dad would make it hard to stand up for myself at school or have any confidence; I flinched a lot also. We also got evicted and had to move in with one of my mom's friends, and I never had any privacy. So life was terrible then.
11th was probably the worst. I tried to fake confidence and make friends but it never worked. At this point my social skills were so bad it didn't matter anyway. I would spend breaks hiding in the toilets or walking around the park behind the school, hoping I wouldn't meet anyone. The shame when I was found walking the park behind the school was pretty fucking bad. Walking home alone everyday was depressing.
Luckily quarantine hit at that time, so I was partly saved. I skipped almost all of my online lessons, ignored school calls and just binged anime for 8+ hours a day until restrictions were eased in 12th.
But then I could wear masks and social interaction was discouraged so it was easier to cope. I did pretty well in school grade-wise because I, and my parents, tied all my worth to my grades, and got into an okay university. Dropped out the first week though, because I couldn't handle it.
My only friend (idk why he ever even talked to me) moved cross-country for a prestigious college and we went from rarely talking to never talking. I never made any friends after that.
sorry for the long post, thanks for reading if you got through it all.