Hey, I’d like to tell you, that you are not alone in this fight called life. You don’t need to apologize or validate your feelings and emotions with what you are going through. I have been here many many times, a revolving door of broken hearts and loosing my family because of my actions. I don’t know your story however what you express is the raw emotion of a great soul. I’m so sorry your marriage failed, that’s a tough one, all the expectation of forever then watching in slow motion as it all falls apart. With that said I’m sure that your father in law will be ok, what you need is a much needed break to just breathe. When little things such as a vacuum comment catapults into a full mental breakdown it is ok to take a step back. It going to be ok, that I promise you.

Do you have the ability to seek counseling? Your family will forgive you and what you need is support. No one can fight the battle you are fighting alone and should not have to.

It’s ok to break you are human. I’m here to tell you that you are strong and you can overcome this. Please don’t beat yourself up, you don’t deserve that. I am here wishing the best for you, please seek your family out as I’m sure they love you. Give yourself a big hug, take a deep breath and keeping telling yourself, it is going to be ok. There will come a point and time when you are on the other side of this unsent and possibly read another letter just as this and you will be able to lend support and smile!

Btw striking out on your own is scary af. Once you do it, and see that you can it will be the most freeing feeling in the world. Trust me on this, overcoming fear and realizing you got this will change your perspective on everything.

Big hugs!!