I was never tested in elementary or middle school because I was always top of my class in my tiny rural town and it seems they only prescribed trouble kids then. But then in high school I kind of evened out and started failing something here and there. My parents chalked it up to me being more interested in girls and weed but I really couldn’t make myself focus with certain subjects.

Then in college I did fine in all the core subjects, but when it came time to pick a major I couldn’t stay motivated and I’ve dropped out and started again twice.

I think I really just don’t give an actual fuck about finishing school or being in any sort of permanent career field, but at the same time I know everyone is right that it’ll make it easier for me to do more of the things I want to do with my life (basically just afford to have children with my long term girlfriend, because honestly I can already afford everything else I like with a simple job- I just like traveling- mostly for hiking and concerts, but I really want the security/stability needed to comfortably start a family).

I’ve tried adderall just a couple times and one time on 30mg was able to easily write a grad student level essay for someone else on a subject I knew nothing about before starting and got them an A. It felt really good, and I thought damn if I had this available all the time I could pretty much accomplish everything I truly intend to...