I feel...afraid of non-white Muslims. Not in a sense like I think they are terrorists, but I'm afraid of them being judgemental towards me.

I converted a few years ago and that time I heard so many times: " You arent a Muslim. You are white, go to a church and don't even think about entering a Mosque. Your kind doesn't belong here" "You are a whre who wants a dark dck", " You want to steal good Muslim Arab men".

Once I even heard "No Muslim will ever marry you, but even if, your children will be no more but (and here is an offensive word for a mixed-race dog...in my language it's offensive even referring to a dog)"

I was only 15 that time, I had 0 "experience" with men and didn't want to get married any soon because again ... I was only 15!

All the comments affected to the degree that at some point of my life I didn't want to marry a Muslim man because "What if we have children and they are gonna be treated the same way ?". I had doubts if I am a Muslim.

Once I met a really good man who I planned to get married with (I met his father and sisters who I became friends with) but his mother didn't agree because I am not Saudi..even tho his sisters, father and he himself tried to convince her for almost a year.

So yes, I met non-white Muslims who were lovely to me but the majority of them weren't. I don't attend Muslim celebrations because I'm too afraid that I will hear those comments again and I don't want it to affect my faith...