You just effectively communicated sadness. So clearly you can communicate. You are giving the negative shit in your life, the negative people in your life too much power and giving yourself not enough love or credit. I wish I was autistic, I would search for the part of me that is special and shine that light everywhere and when people got annoyed I was shinning I would show them they are loved. Being Autistic brings great challenges and opportunity. A lot of us are just born mediocre and must work extra hard to appear normal. No medical reason for us being this way.

Find your shine. Do not let the injury, the illness, the pain define you.