You sound fairly young (?) and while I get exactly where you’re coming from, the silver lining is you have lots of time to discover others that hold their values, morales and principles similar to you. And not even in the context of covid or anything surrounding it. You hold yourself to a different standard than most people, as in thinking for yourself, won’t cave to pressure, you’re ok with going against the grain of society. You should be proud of yourself.

I think in a couple years time you’ll be in a much better spot than you are right now. You’ll learn more about yourself, you’ll connect to actives and people you’ll find much more enjoyable. At least I know I have. Things have changed drastically for myself. And for the better.