I do believe he is trying to make a big plan and working towards it. I do believe his intentions are right. But I don't care how big of a surprise something is. To me it's about all the little things. The little things are where it's at. I know he is willing to uproot and completely forget himself. But I need the little things. I need kindness and understanding. I need nice words. I need all those little things. I just can't do this anymore. I told him so many times I am believing that it was all a mistake. He was a mistake. Somehow I've been blinded by something....,maybe all this time I been projecting and made him up in my head to be something else because all I get from him is harshness and hardness and a coldness and I think I made a huge mistake