Every year my wife and I go camping with friends on Memorial Day weekend. Camping is usually one of my favorite things, I look forward to it every summer, but this time I just felt completely isolated. I generally like that getting out of town and in nature makes me feel like I can truly relax, but this time that just meant that I constantly felt sleepy. I took 2-3 naps each day and I spent a good amount of the time I was awake just wanting to go lie down. Most of the time the only reason I got out of bed was because I had to pee (and I had to pee at least 3 times each night). Everyone went all out on having a bunch of fun beverages like pre-made margaritas, sangria, wine, and 5 different kinds of fancy beer. I had flavored seltzer, and by the end of the second day I was completely sick of drinking it and having the taste of carbonic acid in my mouth, so the one thing I did enjoy is now ruined. Everyone was buzzed/drunk the whole time and of course I was completely sober - but I had to make it so that wasn't obvious because some of my friends don't know. I felt like a weirdo for constantly needing to lie down and I feel like I missed everything fun and only heard about it after the fact.

I cried this morning and basically told my wife that I didn't have a good time and that I'm upset that camping now sucks. And it sucked that so much effort was put into having so many options and not one lick of effort was put into having any options for me, even though I had specifically brought that up before I was even pregnant. And now I'm feeling like I'm being a total baby that I can't just get over it and make the best out of it, and I feel guilty for tainting my wife's fun weekend. I feel completely hormonal and not at all in control of my emotions.