I don't. I'm not an ugmo but I couldn't picture myself with anyone. No one seems to understand how at 45 I've never had anyone...it's not like I haven't had people wanting and they've been decent guys too, and from a variety of ages. I'm in Decent shape, have a stable ok job,money in the bank, but I just suck IMHO. ..I seldom pay attention to others, never socialize, hide from people as much as possible and if I could be invisible,I would. I'm just a miserable self-hating individual who is full of anger and misery and have been since my earliest memories as a kid, and no idea why and don't care to fix the problem, because it won't be fixed. Never had a connection with other humans and I always feel isolated and my own company entertains me more than having a social life. My health is good and I feel like I don't deserve it because I'm such a waste who doesn't and won't so anything with my life. I even stopped using what brains I had, years ago and gave up.