Hey I don't know the circumstances of your sisters passing, but if I can give a word of advice, you need to find something (like a hobby) that'll help you not to fully succumb into despair and don't ever put off seeing a group, therapist, pastor....just someone who'll be your mental rock.

My sibling was in their early 20s and it's only recently while going through pictures of my apartment from before their passing it became clear just how much of myself died with them and how tightly the grief was festering and growing. Most days, I can't remember what I used to be about and I'd been basically just surviving, but living. This is why you need to be on alert from the void.

The waves of extreme emotions and sadness, anger and hopelessness will never really go away I'm afraid, but I promise you, PROMISE, they'll happen less and less everyday.

And if you're living with any mental health disorders, for the love of god, promise me to never ignore it. You're extra vulnerable and susceptible to relapses and undoing any progress you've made.

I'm still dealing with the mess right now, and just want to spare others from ending up like this too. ❤️♥️❤️♥️