Until I was in my 30s I was convinced I was straight. Women also always insisted I was amazing in bed. At the same time though I had been hit on by guys my entire adult life and even the women I fucked insisted I was unusually attentive and sensitive for a guy (one of the things they always liked). For me gay porn was always a turn on but so was straight porn. I was always aware than in movie love scenes I identified more with the woman but convinced myself that was not really that unusual. The turning point for me only came after a long-term relationship ended (ironically she came out as a lesbian first).
I had moved for my job and a month after settling in had what amounted to a perspective altering encounter. I have always been a bit of a nudist and like to strip when I get home from work. I do, however, keep apartment blinds arranged so that I am not flashing anyone (the polite thing to do). In this case, one evening I was laying down on my living room floor doing some stretches when I noticed an odd reflection in a mirror in an apartment opposite me through the angled blinds (the only apartment remotely in view). A guy could see me at just the right angle and was jerking off at the view. Initially, I moved to close the binds but then hesitated when I realized I was hard as a rock, dripping all over the place, had a wet pussy too, and was salivating. Instead, I instinctively opened the blinds a bit more and laid back and masturbated for him. We both came impressively. In fact, I had never cum so hard even when fucking someone. Simply put, it just flipped a switch and I realized I was not quite who I thought I was my entire life. We repeated this routine quite a few times with me getting a bit bolder each time. It shocked me how wet my pussy would get and I quickly went from stroking it to fingering myself. Yes, I also realized that I was a lot more of an exhibitionist than I had ever thought. All the time though I had only managed to talk myself into thinking I was probably bisexual.
Eventually, he got up the nerve to knock on my door. At first it was a bit awkward and we just talked. We then decided to go grab something to eat and talked even more. In the course of conversation he said he was bisexual but had been avoiding sex for almost a year. He too had moved and had come out of a bad relationship. He commented as well that it was only having a sexy gay guy opposite him that woke him up. I let the subject of being gay, straight, or bi alone and did not identify the gender of the person from my last relationship. To make a long story a bit shorter, we went back to the complex and he invited me up to his place and, before I could say anything, he kissed me. I had never been so turned on by a kiss before and nervously agreed.
As soon as we entered his apartment, we started making out (above the clothes) and it all seemed completely natural. His hand then climbed from my knee to between my thighs and I started to get nervous. He realized that I was nervous and asked me if there was a problem. I then admitted I was a total virgin with guys. He said he understood and we could stop whenever I wanted. Coincidentally, his phone then rang and he left the room for a few minutes to take a call. I sat there thinking and realized I was completely turned on. In that moment, instincts kicked in and I stripped naked. I knew what he wanted (he had already been whispering it in my ear) and I wanted it even more. There I was with my cock (now clit) rock hard and pussy literally dripping wet. I knew I wanted him but also knew how I wanted him. I had no interest in fucking, just in getting fucked.
He walked back in the room and smiled and said that was not quite what he expected and then took me in his arms and kissed me again. I then undressed him and took a cock in my mouth for the first time. Again, it just seemed completely natural – far more so than going down on a woman. After sucking him for what seemed like an hour (only ten minutes) I could feel him tense up but before he could pull away, I wrapped my arms around him and he came. I swallowed every drop and savored the taste more than I would have ever imagined. After teasing me that I was pretty damn good for a first timer, he led me into his bedroom. I then learned everything I needed to know about myself, well, all night long. We then made out again, with him grinding himself against me. He then stopped, kissed me, dropped between my legs, and told me I had a beautiful clit (first time it had ever been called that and it has been one ever since). He then proceeded to lick and suck me until suddenly sliding behind my balls. As amazing as his attention to my clit was, tonguing my pussy had me moaning and begging like a girl.
Finally, after changing to 69 for a bit, he pulled away, laid me back, and spread my legs (always my favorite position). He asked me if I wanted him to wear a condom and for the only time in my life on a first encounter, said no. There I was – a formerly straight guy staring at a hard 7.5 inch cock wanting nothing more than to have it inside of me AND to be bred by him. He leaned forward and kissed me, telling me he would stop at any time if it hurt. Instead, he slid right into my pussy – no pain, just pure ecstasy. I knew in that moment that I was not only gay but also a total bottom. He fucked me most of the night over and over again and I came probably ten times including in ways I did not know were possible. I also went from being the quiet male lover when I was with a woman to being the loud fuck, moaning and begging like a bitch in heat.
When we finally came up for air around 3:00 AM, he held me and I curled up close and we talked some more. He then said something that stuck with me. He said that while I was certainly all man when dressed, my pussy and clit were meant for men and that I had been missing out on who I really was by avoiding the fact I was obviously gay. I actually cried and agreed with him, at which point he fucked me one more time. So for me, I went from believing I was straight to thinking I was bisexual to knowing I was not only gay but a total bottom with a pussy and clit, with the first part of the transition being a revelation over the course of a month of playing exhibitionist and the rest happening in one night.