26 year old bipolar 131-135 IQ, had delusions/hallucinations of telepathy.

I think it's just cool to hear of similar people, even if I can't check off synesthesia, migraines, OCD, or asperger's.

Being high IQ makes it a lot harder since I'm aware of my problems but unable to fix them completely. It also makes people assume I'm arrogant or lazy when I struggle

Jeez, people pick up that I'm smart but can't fathom how I can struggle with applying to jobs and getting things done. It seems to make them see me as a failure, and that hurts.

The medications I took caused me to gain a hundred eighty pounds and possibly doomed me to diabetes, so I may lose decades of my life and suffer further disability because of the greed and thoughtlessness of the companies who made those drugs.

I didn't think it was possible, but I've lost 70 lbs back thanks to the right meds and a manic episode. Don't think it's impossible yet. Meds that helped were latuda, wellbutrin, and vyvanse (with an antiepileptic). Probably not the best cocktail for you given OCD presents with anxiety and vyvanse at the very least can exacerbate that.

I want to enlighten people about autism and let them know we aren't monsters without feelings of empathy and sympathy or ticking time bombs but normal people who are suffering great pain that nobody seems to care about.

I give a shit, but I can't say I understand even half of it and am not going to pretend to. But I'm not looking to make people with different minds uncomfortable or anything. I just only know how to help in some ways and not all ways.

This is kind of dick of me, so I'm sorry, but:

Children with autism are as much as 28 times more likely to be suicidal than neurotypical children, and thousands of adults with autism kill themselves every year as well.

reminds me of statistics I've seen suggesting 90% of transpeople attempt suicide. Yes, it is deplorable the world treats different kinds of minds so poorly, but the treatment of autistic people is only one front we need to improve norms on.

I'm kind of optimistic to a fault about some things, so I'd like to think science doesn't find autistics to be sociopathic automatons or anything (even if it used to, in that autism was originally used to suggest autistic minds were mechanical, unfeeling, and in their own world).

Progress is being made. Slowly, poorly, and inadequately, but it's there.

If you could change your mind/thought patterns at will to be somehow different, what, if anything, would you change about it/them?