Well we did really get to know each other. We talked every day for nearly days. I guess I felt like we could understand each other and I've never really felt that way towards anyone else. And I've never given myself away like that before.

But honestly I'm so hurt right now. Even after we talked a little and she was saying she didn't respond with a lot because "she didn't want to say something hurtful" I feel like she's lost all interest.

And maybe she only really ever cared about her snapchat score and the 54 day snapstreak. And now that it's gone, I don't matter. I think I can feel the answer in my heart.

I feel more hurt and disprespected than anything right now. And I can't sleep. And her vague responses are just pushing me way. I know I don't want to say "I change my mind. Goodbye" because I've already done that twice. I think I'm just going to leave her on my social media but I think we won't really ever talk again...

I had crushes on girls in high school. And they ended up with other guys obviously. But when I think about this situation, I see myself crying at 90 years old on my deathbed thinking about her, the one that got away.