Subs didn’t do anything for me. Everyone’s bodies are different. Subutex, suboxone, zubsolv, it didn’t matter bupe just made me feel like shit. I’m happy on methadone, & I know I’m still physically addicted to opiates lol. I’m not trying to get clean, it’s “maintenance.” I’m just trying to turn my habit into a more manageable (& legal) one..& it’s working like a charm! I love methadone, I plan to stay on it for the rest of my life. It’s even helping me to get off the klonopin im prescribed, it helps that much for my anxiety. I’ve tapered down to half what I was using in just the last month, & I plan to completely come off benzos in March. Then methadone with be the only thing I take! And I actually like going to the clinic every day believe it or not, it adds structure to my life that’s much needed. As far as the traveling goes, until I earn enough take home doses you’re right about all that. But I don’t care, it is sooo worth it to me. Doesn’t bother me at all. Idk why you’re hating on me for being happily dependent on methadone, but that’s okay lol. You can have your opinion, we’re all entitled to one. I can have mine too though, & my opinion on this is that methadone is BY FAR the best drug for OUD, at least for some ppl! It can be used for a short term taper just as easy as it can be used for maintenance. Did I swap one addiction for another though? Sure did. Methadone is a very powerful full agonist narcotic. But that’s what I want, & it’s how I live a happy life & successful life. Not only does it work wonders for my physical addiction, but for me personally it’s the best mental health drug I’ve ever taken. I’ve been on just about every SSRI, SNRI, TCA, etc in the books. I’ve even tried ketamine infusions without success. Opiates/opioids have just always done the trick. There’s actually a theory that some ppl are naturally deficient in endogenous opioids, & simply need to supplement with exogenous ones. I subscribe to that theory, & that’s just my personal viewpoint. All I have to do is wake up in the mornings, drive to a little building & swallow a little cup of some bitter liquid & I’m a better version of myself. I’m a version of myself that I like! Methadone has already allowed me to start working again, to pick up old hobbies, has given me the confidence to meet new ppl, etc. It’s easily the best decision I’ve ever made. If subs worked for you, & you’re now happy with your life...that’s fantastic! Whatever works. Methadone is what works for me, & I’ll happily continue maintenance on it despite not being able to travel or see friends in other cities, etc for a long while. Again I’m not sure why you’re hating on me for this, I guess this isn’t r/methadone lol, but however. I’ve never been more docile in my life. I respect your opinion, but as I’ve explained here I’m perfectly fine with all those negative aspects. The last time I felt this happy with myself I was a young teenager lol.