A handful of people on 4chan and stuff have told me I'm clockable bc of my face/head shape, or that they'd definitely be able to tell I'm trans bc of my eyes, or that it's impossible to pass as cis at my height. I used to be stealth in hs but then once I got outed by my gf people kept telling me that I'd never be a real guy because of xyz. And even my gf told me that it's pretty easy to tell. Transferred schools and stayed stealth until the end of college, but my roommate still clocked me. And when I decided to stop being stealth, a few people told me that they could always tell anyways even when I had zero idea they had any idea and some other people said stuff like "oh so that's why you blah blah blah" and started pointing out stuff that I didn't even think about before. My parents constantly tell me that I still have a super female face and it's extremely obvious. Whenever I look in the mirror, most of the time I can't see anything other than a woman. If you put me in a lineup of 10 cis guys and had to pick out one that's trans, I'd get picked out pretty much every single time. I don't look anything like an actual guy.

I feel like a complete asshole saying this to another trans person but I only articulate this about myself, I accept other people as whatever they say they are: If I DO pass, I'm just lying to other people, and it'd be better to detransition anyways bc that's how I'm supposed to be living