I'm also a 30M (just turned 30, Feb. 2nd) virgin. It is something that I think about all the time. It's my first thought when I wake up and the last thing before I sleep.

It's mainly a "time is running out" feeling.

I have had my chances. I'm not a terrible looking fella, so in high school and for a few years beyond I had chances that I passed on because I didn't really "like" the girls it was happening with. I would stop right at the point of intercourse and steer them towards other stuff (oral - only 1 girl and she sucked at it, nothing but the tip went in her mouth and barely that, hands - had plenty of handys in my time, tit-fucking - one of my favorites, etc).

To be honest, it's not so much the "mark" of virginity that I want to "get rid of", I just REALLY WANT TO FUCKING HAVE SEX ALREADY! (But yeah, the "mark" is definitely part of it still).

All of those times I've messed around with girls doing other things are some of the BEST TIMES IN MY LIFE. So imagine how GOOD actual sex must be???!! Well, that's all I CAN do is imagine it.

To touch on the "time is running out" aspect of it; as I get older, it's only acceptable to be with other girls that are also older. No offense to older women, I've been attracted to plenty of older girls, but I am a VERY young looking person, I still look about 25ish maybe less (lol), and I am attracted to younger girls. If I happen to still be a virgin when I'm 45-50, then any chances of having sex with a beautiful young woman are slim to none. I hope this last part made sense, I'm not a pedophile or anything, I just don't want to miss out on my chance to sleep with 20-something-year-olds because I'm 46 and still a virgin...know what I mean?

Sorry, I'm not trying to hijack your thread, just giving you my story, I'll be making my own thread soon. Thanks for listening if you made it this far. I'm glad that you have been able to find peace regarding this "situation" of ours.