I understand what you are going through. I feel so lazy and like I am going to be a whale by the summer. My weight before I got pregnant was 145 (6’1”, so BMI like 19). I’m very lean. People used to call me “stick” back in the day. I had already gained 5 lbs by my 8 week appointment. I don’t even want to know what I weigh now as I have my 12 week on Wednesday. I barely have a bump but I feel so bloated. My OB was very clear to me that I need to gain at least 30 lbs. I’ve never been even close to 180 so I’m nervous. My mom gained 50 lbs with me! I am trying to remind myself that a healthy baby is all that matters and that this is temporary. I’ve been wearing a lot more loose clothing and definitely not weighing myself at home. My OB office is also really nice and will not tell me my weight unless I need to know for health reasons.