I literally said in the flinging flanging title that "...with compensation in in the form of stall-cleaning / grooming / feeding no but that's fine. I'm astounded.

I had my therapy session, afterall she said if I did not schedule an appointment with a psychiatrist and 'put myself out there' for figuring out how to get back to trailriding, she would have my SO take my computer away. I was crying, saying how I felt discouraged from trying to find a place to ride because these are exactly the type of people I would have to deal with. She asked to see this. I showed her. and you know what she, a rider herself, said? "I want to take your phone and respond, 'fuck you'. No seriously." I started, "Yeah...horse people are..." and she said "bitchy."

I've been trying to genuinely appreciate the advice -- and some of you, and even those who have upset me really truly have given me good advice and encouragement-- however; I am just going to let my immature, angry side take over here. You guys are being absolutely ridiculous. I am dumbfounded by how judgemental the majority of people on this subreddit are. Jesus christ. Yup, I might as well have been lobotomized before asking to trailride someone's horse because I'm incompetent. How embarrassing for me to have only spent 20 years of my life horseback riding, but havent had as many formal lessons as all of you have had. Yes, I need a certified triainer to know shit about horses. Thank you for pointing out how horse-illiterate I am because I have an incorrect definition of the fucking word 'exercise'. Yes, I expected that I could waltz into a barn filled with $20,000 horses and have every person in there clamoring over me just begging me to take their horses out. I would never want to try to repay them for granting me such kindness by something so simple as a stall cleaning and a dose of gratitude. Afterall, I am ruining all their hardwork by taking their horse on a trailride. Sure, a trailride is good every once in a while but a horse needs to have a true job a true discipline! Yes, we need to teach horses what we humans have dubbed correct movements and postures, teach them to dance for years. It should be considered animal abuse just using your horse for trailriding your horse due to how mind-numbingly dull it is.

How dare I assume that * When I started english lessons at age 4 at Century Mill stables *When Century Mill changed ownership, I switched to yet another stable called Harmony Horse Stables with more english lessons *Trying a new overnight camp in NH called Roads End Farm where they had 60 horses, and be the only person to ride a horse transitioning from western to english, and the camp was also lacked seriousness about horses and allowed all campers to waltz into the pasture at free will *Leased an abused, retired harness-racer and work months on end to get him to the point that when we went on trail rides, he wouldn't panic at a fallen tree branch and try to run off. No, it didn't matter that I got him to a point where the owner's friend came to ride him and was incredulous at the progress he had made. *Standardbred got injured and the owner decided to sell, so I began riding a teacher's appaloosa. I rode him completely by myself out on trails for 9 years without incidence, but I can chalk that up to luck and just the fact that he was a 'good horse'. No I had no idea what I was doing. Simply climbed on, kicked once, and he did the rest.