People are fake without really meaning to be. I think everyone tends to be a bit narcissistic when evaluating their opinion of themselves. What I mean is, we all tend to think we matter more the other people/strangers then we actually do.

One of the most liberating and positive things people can do for is learning to define our worth without the need for input from others.

We all have something fucked up with us, your's just tends to be more noticeable. It's the same as when somebody posts they have been sober for so long, or that they walked out of an abusive relationship. Overcoming a challenging situation is typically admirable, and for that reason it compels people to chip in their two cents. IE, gee you're so inspirational and brave, how ever do you do it.

Unlike addicts, or victims of emotional abuse, people can visibly see something isn't quite right with you :⁾ That's why it seems to be the only thing people notice and comment on.

But bruh, and this is the whole reason I am writing this,

It's been two decades since my birth so why does the messed up way I came into the world continue to define who I am?

Because you are letting it define you.

There isn't some magical switch you can flip that will let you block out other people's opinion of you. You are in your early twenties I'm guessing, just like me. I'm just now starting to realize that life takes a lot of fucking work to not only find happiness, but stay there. The only way you will get enjoyment out of life is if you enjoy living it. Just because it sounds simple doesn't mean it is.

Spend your life pushing yourself to try new things. Get comfortable with comfortable situations. Propel yourself to be a better person. If you can sleep on your pillow at night, knowing that you are actively working towards bettering some aspect of your life, you will care a whole lot less that people are terrible judges of you.

Cheers cripple