I’m 25 and I feel this way too. I’ve been trying to get my permit since I was 17 and have failed every single time I’ve taken the test. And I see my siblings who are teenagers and have their licenses and I get jealous because I have been working on getting my permit since I was their age and I fail every time. I have given up on driving completely and my dad said that I should try and take the test again and I know I’ll fail it because I’ve been failing it for almost a decade now and it makes me feel like I’m a pathetic loser because I’m the oldest sibling and I should be driving by now and I’m not. I also get this thought that if I do some how miraculously to get my permit somehow, that I wouldn’t even know how to drive and that I’ll freak out and have a panic attack whenever I do.