I’m in shock! I think I’m actually pregnant! My period was expected today (Christmas Eve) and this whole month I was gearing up for being super depressed over the holidays. Even though I was trying not to get my hopes up I was of course reading into any “signs” that I might be pregnant and knew it would hit hard if I wasn’t again. My breasts didn’t hurt the week after ovulation which they have every month since I’ve been paying attention and I had that little dip in temperature 8 DPO before it shot back up but I’ve had dips before so when I temped this morning and my temperature had risen a little instead of plummeting down I felt the first little rays of hope. I used a First Response pregnancy test this morning and although the second line was super light, there was a second line!

I’m trying to hold onto the hope and excitement of this (even though it feels a little unreal) instead of worrying over all the things hat could go wrong to take it way. My husband and I talked about how we both tend to want to protect our emotions but that it’s important to embrace joy even if it potentially means dealing with pain later. Besides, I don’t want to ruin this beginning time worrying about things I have no control over. Does anyone else deal with this too?

It really does feel unreal though. And you know, I don’t really “feel” pregnant so it’s hard for it to sink in. Just to share one last thing, my husband gave me an early Christmas present this morning and it’s one of those pregnancy silhouette ornaments. Apparently he bought it last January and has been holding on to it, getting a little more worried as things didn’t happen like we planned, ha!