Okay, so this is my first time in this sub but my situation was freakishly similar to yours. So here goes...

I knew that I liked women but I had this idea in my mind that all girls felt the way I did about other girls and that it was 'normal'.

I told my bf about my previous encounters (just kissing) and he never judged me for it but I still couldn't tell him about what I fantasized about sometimes when I would masturbate.

One night after a couple of drinks, we found ourselves with another couple and next thing I knew, I had my face between her legs. I knew I wanted it, just not how much until that moment.

All this to say... we both learned that we could have been so much more open with each other before. Like we were somehow on the same page now when we never were before.

I've been with a few other ladies since then and we are still together, it made us stronger.

That said, if I had been held back from having that experience and/or experimenting since, I dont know that I could have stayed with my bf because I realize that this is who I am and I'm not going to compromise on enjoying life while I can.

I'm sorry for the novel and idk if I've helped. I've had a few glasses of red and felt your post.

Best wishes xp