It wasn't about a good or bad idea. It's hard to explain. This is where I think the mental health issues come in. I'd consider myself at least average intelligence person. I have a bachelors degree and graduate school under my belt. My job was not an entry level job. I knew it was wrong and was a bad idea. I knew the consequences and how easy it would be to find out. It wasn't about that. I think it's more about filling this need I had? Getting instant gratification. Getting things I wanted now. I'm an adult but go through phases where I act like a kid. I would go through times of stopping the behavior an being disgusted then hitting a low point and stealing more. Towards the end I finally started seeing a doctor and got meds. But yeah. I really don't know.