Borrowed the book from someone I know freshman year of High School. No idea why they had it, as they aren't a Satanist, but I read through it because I have a hobby of reading occult books and A.) I knew it had Enochian Keys. Still haven't sat down to actually learn it because everyone who does likes to couch the shit behind rituals and the Nordic runes are much more interesting, and B.) I like reading the books as it's an exercise in seeing just how much posturing and empty waving at general evils and really bad scholarship the book would have compared to every other spellbook written by a horny 40 year old woman wanting to feel more special than everyone by having a "terrible" secret that they once danced naked for 5 minutes and light candles to talk to Pagan gods they completely confused to the level of doing shit like calling Bacchus the God of Conquest or Odin the Protector of Female Innocence.

Well, seeing an "occult" book with actual common sense was not only a shock, it was a joy. It just made sense from a historical and personal point of view. Seemed almost redundant and unnecessary as I was sure most of it was just reiterating shit even I learned at age 8, like "Don't talk the talk and be surprised to be asked to walk the walk" and "Don't be surprised to be treated like trash by someone who was nice, they'll just keep going." I paraphrase, but you get the point. Wasn't sure how I felt about the rituals as I still didn't like the occult until I realized that I still fully believed in Ghosts and refused to step on the metal part of train tracks for fear of electrocution. So yeah, need to recognize I'm laughing at the shield I'm hiding behind. I'll take the opportunity to wear black robes and a mask anyways, makes me feel good and helps me feel better, and that's all that's important.

So yeah. Not been that many years since then but nothing has happened but confirmation. Never been happier since fully embracing it and letting go of useless guilt over "being good" when I'll be shunned for not putting it on parade no matter what, so why work for something I don't actually care about. Save the energy for groups and people I actually want to.