Good for you for venting and processing your emotions! Honestly that’s the hardest part! If you weren’t allowed to process things as a child, it can be especially difficult as an adult so just a big kudos there first!

Now that you know how you’re feeling you can decide what to do with it. Do you need more time to feel them? Totally cool. Do you want to download a dating app? Awesome. You follow your intuition and what you and your body need at the time.

Like a few others have said here, life can get a lot better after your twenties and college. My twenties were a depressed alcoholic mess. I didn’t know what I was doing and I didn’t know who I was and I didn’t really like anyone. Your twenties are sooo tough like no one talks about it because you’re supposed to be an adult but you really are still developing in a LOT of ways.

My advice-from one fellow messy juman to the next. Learn to listen to yourself and if you can’t do that, go for a walk. It sounds so simple and dumb but a good walk Can work WONDERS. I know I sound old as shit saying that but I’m in my early thirties and walks around my neighborhood have saved me many times.

Wishing you all the best OP! Life is hard and beautiful and no one knows what they’re doing. ❤️