Yeah, I've tried Tantra before, it seemed to actually tense me up even more. Reading seems to help at first, then fades away. I'd say the session gets less and less effective the more the minutes pass. At first it's like "whoa", then it turns into "ok I'm bored" maybe 10-15 minutes in.

I do try natural supplements people suggested like holy basil, ashwaganda, saw palmetto, celery seed, chamomile, gingko, etc. (not all at once of course) to try to calm myself more and enhance the prostate, but didn't feel any milestones. They all seem to have some effects but not that "awaken" the prostate.

Dropping my thoughts seems like an impossibility. I have tried, haha, boy have I tried. Even staring at a single dot on a piece of white paper is extremely difficult to do without thoughts wandering. I've tried binaural beats and calming music with ANC headphones on too.

I find it amazing how people on here can "clear their mind" really. Mine is always on the move. I abandoned my expectations ages ago, I think. At first, last year, they WERE high, but now they are at "I think I can't".