I know how hard it can be to talk about this stuff, even with your therapist. It was a year before I could actually remember everything that happened on the night I was raped. And then several months before I gathered up the courage to actually tell my therapist.

Also, I was an adult when I was raped, so my memories weren't fragile like a child's are. It's entirely possible that something traumatic happened to you when you were younger that you simply don't remember.

Regardless, you are being extremely brave by taking this step. For me, the hardest part was talking about it. Which is why I recommend trying it out with someone who isn't your therapist before you tell him. I hadn't said it out loud either, and then I told a friend I trusted, and that not only gave me the confidence to tell my therapist, but the words I needed to describe things too.

If you don't have any close friends you trust with your thoughts, try journaling about it. Write about everything that has happened in as much detail as possible, even the parts that make you feel so ashamed you could die. Write about how each thing made you feel to the best of your abilities. You can destroy it afterwards. Just get it out of your head.

If you still feel too nervous to say it out loud to your therapist, try writing a short version of what you journaled about and then give it to your therapist and say: Hey, I really want to talk about this, but I'm kind of nervous to say it out loud. Would you read this? I guarantee you that your therapist has done that for a number of other patients.

Finally, I know I'm just a random girl, but if you ever, ever want to talk about it with someone and no one else is available, don't hesitate to message me. I know how horrendous this stuff can feel, and it's even worse when you need someone and no one is available who knows what happpened.

Anyway, good luck!! Don't stress. You'll do great :)