Well, I've always been a nerd. From day one. I attended nine schools between kindergarten and graduation, and only stopped because my parents told me I couldn't change anymore. I was called ugly, beaten up, lots of typical bullying, mostly because I skipped grades so I was always a lot younger. So by the time I was 16 and starting to DJ... I was way past ever thinking of myself as sexy. I wore giant sized skate clothes and just hid inside my hoodie. My friends have been dudes all my life, girls were super mean to me, so it wasn't until I was in my mid twenties that I started even dressing attractively sometimes, and then only because I realized that I was perpetuating the stereotype on the flipside - that any girl who is accomplished/intelligent is homely and frumpy. So now I deliberately try to maintain a reasonable standard of attractiveness while not being too sexy because you gotta ride that fine line of the virgin/whore complex in a male dominated industry, right? ;P My brain and creative abilities have always been my pride, since I wasn't ever "hot", and my parents have always enforced my intellect by letting me experience art, science, drama, whatever I wanted to try. And for another dose of honesty, at the brief time in my life (ages 18-22) where I might have considered doing something like the "Playboy DJ package" where you do the centerfold and then get booked at every schmaltzy top 40 club in miami and dallas and cancun..... There was one guy who was approaching most of the female DJs with these offer, and (in logical standing with the fact that i am not traditionally/commercially attractive) he never approached me.

So it's mostly just not even feeling like a girl, and partially because I don't fit into that exploitable category really.