Thank you for reading. I was at rock bottom. Thankfully I had people around me that were incredibly supportive that literally forced me to go to see a doctor which then I was referred to a counsellor. I was extremely reluctant about this because I had the attitude of 'I am a man, I shouldn't be showing my feelings like this, it makes me weak'. It took me a few weeks to adjust to it but it ended up being the best thing for me. It changed my life. For me personally, it didn't 'cure' me, but it provided me with the tools to face up to my own problems. For me, change only started once I admitted to myself I had a problem and rather than being ashamed of it and avoid it, I should face it and stop it from consuming me.