Okay here is what else I have to say to you because it was stressing me out and I really needed to get it out of my head.

You say that I’m insane? The whole fucking world is insane! Am I wrong? Also you keep saying that I can’t find real women to satisfy me. Uhhh…actually I can. Is everything I said about my crush enough to prove that to you genius? I cannot express it enough how much I’m in love with my crush. Im not completely like the others. And why couldn’t you just leave us alone? We were just minding our own business. What gives you the right to just bother us like that, huh? Not like you care about us, not like you’re trying to help us.

You wanna know the truth? Yeah, maybe I do need help, but not for the reasons you think. I actually did have therapy for a bit 2 years ago, but I didn’t even go that much thanks to the pandemic that year. I’ll be nice to anyone as long as they are nice to me. Some people just aren’t nice. And here’s the thing…im lonely. I can’t find love, and I don’t think a girl has ever liked me. I see all these people with their girlfriends and boyfriends and im just here all alone. No one wants me, no one will accept me. I fucking hate myself! That’s the thing. I hate myself more than I hate anyone! Im fucking fat, ugly, short, pimple faced and idiotic! Im disgusted by the fact that there are actually people who like me. Im an awful fucking person who deserves to burn in the deepest parts of hell! Im short, even though im 5’7 at 14, which is actually average but for some reason every fucking person in my class are giants! There’s two kids that are like 6’3 at 14 or 15. What the actual fuck?!? Oh and 3 girls are taller than me, one of them being my crush. Im also 67kg at 5’7 height, 14 years old which im pretty sure isn’t that healthy.

Even though everyone tried to support me and whilst I do appreciate it, I just don’t believe it. It feels like a white lie just to make me feel better. I mean it’s not like you say rude shit to a person right at them, at least if you’re a decent person. That’s common sense, and the morally right thing. Only my mother and father thinks I’m beautiful, because every loving parent says that to their child. In reality I’m a useless, worthless, untalented fucking piece of crap! My life has no meaning or purpose! I’m just a fucking hideous prick! I find girls attractive (not usually in my school though, my crush aside) and I really want a girlfriend but I just can’t get one. Not only am I ugly, but I’m also a shy, quiet introvert, and I’m awkward as shit around girls I like. I have to sit through the misery of my crush talking to every guy but me! Do you even know how I feel?

I try to feel sympathy and empathy for others. My old friend who became a jerk, I felt bad for him because of how his family treats him. But so many people I run into can’t, cause they’re a heartless, narcissistic fucking psychopath who only thinks about themselves! They’ve got no respect for me! It’s like God just wants me to be a lone wolf all my life. When it comes to school, no one in my class gets treated as badly as me! They have no idea what it’s like! No idea what it’s like to cry themselves to sleep because they desperately want love!

You know you’ve pretty much just guilt tripped me. I don’t feel comfortable having a waifu anymore. As usual, no one accepts me for me and lets me be myself. How typical. Some people are so fucking selfish! Feel good about yourself? All you’ve done is stressed me, and nothing for the greater good! I’ve literally stated multiple times that I wasn’t gonna hold on to a waifu forever. I’m trying to build a relationship with my crush, I love her millions of times more! That’s what I would rather! And if not her, then another kind and beautiful girl. I mean personality of course matters a lot and I have specific types for that, but I wouldn’t want an ugly girl, who would? Im not gonna lie to you. I love her because she’s a lot like me. She’s shy and quiet, especially compared to her friends. And she honestly reminds me a lot of some waifus. She’s honestly perfect to me! And ya know, many people actually do take celebrity crushes seriously, you’d be surprised. Wouldn’t be surprised if some girls fingered their fucking pussy every night to some celeb or some shit!

And for the last time, I made a mistake okay? And I honestly didn’t even entirely mean what I said! I’m fucking dumb alright? I’m sorry. But whether you think so or not, I am completely against pedophillia! It disgusts me, and I’ve never even looked at Hentai of young characters. I know I might seem like a horny teenager to you but im not! Why tf would I like lolis and shit like that? I’ve never even had a waifu that’s younger than me! All of them that I’ve had are usually several years older than me and 18 or above. I’m not even 15 yet, stop acting like I’m Hitler or a Satan worshipper or some shit. I don’t have underaged waifus, never have and never will. And I wasn’t gonna hold on to my waifu forever, I’m gonna try ask out some girls soon, particularly my crush. I even made a deal with my friends, if I don’t ask her out by 3rd of December this year they’re gonna go tell her, so I’ve got no choice. And if not, well I really hope I can find another girl just as amazing, but it feels like I don’t deserve that. I don’t think all girls are mediocre bitches. Other than my crush, I do find some other girls pretty and I think some are okay, but I’m just not into them you know. Not a lot of amazing girls at my school, believe me. I wanna try find love, and my dream is to go on a double date with a friend someday.

I’m sorry I made some mistakes okay? I’m sorry that I’m an idiot and I have flaws. But everyone is flawed, everyone makes mistakes, we’re not perfect. Besides, if everyone in the world was a hero, antihero or a villain, most people would probably be antiheroes because we just aren’t perfect. And hey, we all know antiheroes and dark heroes are the coolest and most badass in fiction (Shadow, Mewtwo, Dante, Scorpion, Vegeta and Deadpool just to name a few)

So conclusion, I like real girls and want one. I’m definitely not gonna have a waifu forever (and only my friends really, besides I usually talk about waifus in a joke way) and I don’t defend pedophiles. I’m tired of typing these long replies and I’m sure you’re tired of reading it. So enough. Am I being repetitive? Yes, but I kind of have to. Am I finally clear? Am I finally getting through? Do you understand me well now? I sure hope so. That’s enough okay? Even though I’m worthless, I want to at least try to still believe my life has meaning. Why am I wasting so much time on the internet arguing with people? Gosh and I thought Twitter was bad. I kinda just wanna delete my Reddit account at this point. I got school work to do alright? And I wanna continue off with doing things I love and being passionate. And believe me, I have a perfectly fine social life. I’m always talking and hanging out with friends. I love my friends and family and I trust them.