Don't feel like a scumbag for this. A lot of people thought he was just messing around, a lot of people were spreading false info (lots unknowingly) and people just wanted hope that he would be safe.

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People cope in different ways, and it seems to me that you were worried but wanted to find a reason not to worry, and just clung on to whatever seemed right. There is nothing wrong with that in my eyes. Humor is a way many people cope with tragedy.

No one wants to believe that someone they love to watch and someone they admire is in a dark place and may end their life, so they may cling on to any hope that they're wrong and they aren't in a bad place.

To me it just seemed like you were in denial, and did exactly that.

I hope I worded this well, but do not feel bad. I hope you feel better about yourself soon.