If this is an ARG, I have to say it’s been pretty wild. I would also say you went way too far with it.

If you’re legitimately struggling however, take a breather from all of this. Honestly I haven’t watched your stuff regularly in a few years. But from the few clips I’ve seen here and there you seem to be invested in the internet and your fan base to an unhealthy degree. My advice to you is to take a step back from everything and look at life outside the boundaries of a screen. Take the time to be a normal person again. I think it would do a lot of good for your mental health and I’m certain everyone who is worried about you would understand.