I've never felt suffering anywhere close to what you're experiencing. But I will say this. Just, just try to push through it. One step at a time. But eventually, eventually it at least won't hurt quite so hard. Eventually you'll be able to feel again all the other people in your life that care about you. Even just having an utterly pointless bout of emotional pain I had at one point I have enough of a point of reference to know that's unfeelable right now, but also that it can come back. And in the meanwhile, it's going to hurt. It's going to hurt a lot. But even if you never lose the scars, eventually you'll start feeling something again.

So just, just trust me. No matter how much it feels otherwise, and I know full well it's going to no matter how I put how I say this because when things are this bad it's pretty much impossible to not feel otherwise no matter how much you want to, things will get better. You just have to keep holding on in the meanwhile.

I, I don't know if that was the right response or not. I just know that when I got past feeling, I never wanted to hear "everything is gonna be OK" or something sappy like that. That's not comforting, that just feels like the other person doesn't freaking care. Hell, even hearing "I care about you" doesn't feel like the other person cares. No matter how much I do care, it'll just feel like I'm going through the motions on your end because things are just indescribably awful right now.