Thank for sharing, I'm sorry to hear that. Yeah I'm going to lay off 5MEO. I was so excited about the prospect of ego death that I didn't stop to think of the potential consequences of doing it with my condition. The closest I've come to the sensations I felt the night I did 5MEO without actually using it, is just going through my current spiritual/meditative practices which at least tells me I'm on the right path. Just surrendering to the universe and letting go has been helpful.

A month or two after my 5MEO trip when I was out and about outside, I started to get a massive headache. I went home and went into bed and I started to get inundated with thoughts of infinity while I was sober and coherent and my body was shaking and I was basically freaking out by what was penetrating my mind. Infinity was penetrating my mind but this time being fully awake I didn't feel the bliss or happiness I had felt for the non traumatic portions of my 5MEO trip