Dude yeah that’s messed up. Like I couldn’t even fathom grown adults expecting that out of such a young child but you know some parents be totally cray cray!!!
And never in this world ever, no matter what okay, does it ever make you a bad person for having feelings. Your feelings matter, and your feelings are completely valid.
I have to admit I’m totally bummed out here at your whole situation here. I’m truly truly not trying to sound mean I just literally hate how down your are feeling and how much lack of help you have!
There are ways for you to get through all of your mental health issues with never having to look another human in the Face!! I even find when on Reddit a lot I can get a lot of great feedback. Sometimes it’s not really what you want to hear and sometimes the advice can sound harsh; but I will say I’ve never encountered anyone who wasn’t just trying to help me.
I hope you find the help you need to get through your personal issues, and I’m sure you could pick any random username on here and pm them and just chat with for support. Everyone is kind of down for helping everyone and always having an open ear, even to strangers.
As for the cousin thing like I had a little sister four years younger than me. I absolutely hated that I was always made to hang out with her and keep her entertained. When I got older I was so mean to her, I’d even admit I bullied her. Now I’m almost 30 and I literally cry thinking about how mean I was and how much I resented her for no reason! And all she did was look up to her big sister!!!
Literally my biggest mistake. I encourage you to love your cousin and be best friends forever. You will be so glad to have someone so close to you when you’re older. She looks up to you more than you jnow. And if you’re being truthful about how the adults in her life just passed her on for another child who’s 5 years old to be responsible for than it sounds like she actually needs someone in her life to genuinely give a shit.
Kids aren’t dumb, the same way you see the adults in the situation being neglectful TRUST ME, your baby cousin can sense it too.