I'm really new to this and not entirely sure what is "proper" to say, but I know a bit about being overweight and anxiety. Anxiety is a monster that's supposed to be helping keep us from dangerous situations, but in modern days, we just don't have enough tigers to run from and so little things set off all the alarms. Every program I've been on has promoted deep belly breathing, so give that a go, but frankly it just makes me feel dizzy sometimes. As for your worry, write it out even more! Here, a journal, send me a PM. Just brain dump that until there's nothing left. It'll help. There's probably going to be a lot more tears and everything else. Use what you've learned in your other programs and know, really know that everything is in the hands of your HP. I'm just a random internet stranger, but no one has ever asked me to be in their wedding, so I know that means that at least one part of that couple think you are on a short list of people that are awesome and worthy to be with them on their very important (and let's be honest, very stressful for them too) day. They picked you! And so did your boyfriend. You have people in your life that think you are worth it. Don't let overeating and anxiety make you believe that you aren't. You are worth it. I don't post much because of my own anxiety and personal shit, but I couldn't scroll past your post. I think you're worth caring about, and cheering on, too. Take care.