That's what I was thinking, yeah. If she actually thought of me as a friend she would've wanted to work through the issue. But it seemed so easy for her to just remove me out of her life. I feel like she threw me away.

And what you're saying about her and Cas is probably correct as well. Before her message there was a long silence where I didn't hear from her. She ignored my messages and I got worried.

So I asked Cas: 'is she mad? Is she okay?' to which his response was: 'that's entirely up to her to tell you. I don't want to get in between this.' that already told me that 1. They've been talking about me and 2. She's actually mad about something that Im not aware of.

Now he too has been getting distant. When I asked him if he feels differently about me and our friendship, he 'didnt want to get into it at that moment' which also already answered my question.

So what you're saying makes a lot of sense. I guess I was just third wheeling. I didn't really mind, but I do feel like I wasted so much time and energy on them I could have put into other, better friends and myself