So basically Ive wanted to smoke cigs from when I was about 14, it was just appealing to me. Everyone found smokinf cigs nasty snd so did I until I wanted to smoke them. However I held off on it for a while until i turned 16. Now im 16 and started attending my sophomore year. my depression was hitting me hard and i always felt like shit, however I had a friend who had herbal cigs (the shit they use in the movies) and asked me if i wanted to try them to just see if i enjoyed it. I enjoyed it kind of, it took my mind off things, gave me something to do but the taste was horrible and I didnt feel any better. I was still smoking the herbal cigs for a month because i just wanted to feel better so bad but I gave in, plus i had to order them online and i hate waiting. Recently I was at a party and my friend offered me a cig (some menthol one) I was drunk and said fuck it and WOW i felt soo good. So i decided I am only gonna smoke when I drink, but as times got a little harder I decided to buy myself a pack. Im trying to just do it in moderation and not get addicted but Im sure i will end up getting addicted. Oh well, so yea my depression and my odd desire of wanting to smoke is what lead me to start smoking