This is so true, and absolutely terrifying. Like, panic attack provoking.

Whenever I see montages in movies or TV of someone’s whole life passing, it FUCKS with me because I realize that my whole life is just passing by like a montage, but I’m not neurologically capable of doing that meta cognitive piece of seeing the montage—the planning, the operationalization, the work and gradual progress, the reaching toward a goal and eventually achieving it.

The montage is happening. Right now. It’s going by so god damn quickly, but instead of seeing it and being in control from of it, I’m stuck in each little scene of it, watching TV instead of applying for a better job, scrolling Reddit instead of lifting weights, eating burgers instead of going on dates…

Linear time is a horror. Being born without the ability to sense it is a tragedy.