When I realized I was into it I just noticed how much stuff I liked that had that tag/fit that bill. When I realized how into it I was was about a week ago when I saw this sub on this account and saw the ways these relationships are represented. Ever since I haven't stopped fantasizing. I've always been eager to please, I feel less insecure about my height and abandonment issues (when at least imagining it), I've always kind of wanted to be a (relatively unabused) pet, and the intimacy seems very deep. I want a relationship where I can be wholly vulnerable, used to serve another's pleasure, and still be cared for. Almost every anxiety is covered, I just need to get over how unattractive I feel my personality is.