Really? Hmmm. Probably not a real comforting thought, huh?

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That DES questionnaire just doesn't describe me at all.

I have just in the last six months found apps on my phone that I had no memory of dowloading--one a drawing app, one for the Calm app (which is excellent for everyone, I think, I love it for the bedtime stories, just wonderful). And then I saw that I'd signed up for a trauma breath work session when I was looking at my calendar. I had no memory of downloading any of those. There was no alcohol involved. Before these? In all my life, nope, never found things I did not recall buying.

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I've had only very few incidents of doing something that I knew for sure was, like, just not me., that I was not there at all. What very vague memory exists of that worst one was definitely not me, not like I know myself. It is just too personal to post online, but it scared the hell out of me. But there was also alcohol involved, just not enough that I should have blacked out and done something so off the wall. And no real hangover the next day. The person I was with said I didn't seem drunk, just that I seemed to be in a trance.

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So that DES questionnaire won't catch all dissociators. I dont recall my score, but it's low.